Devante

To be born is to someday die, To love is to someday get heartbroken, To hate is to disregard, To live forever is immortality which is crazy, But true genuinely self happiness is a lifetime.                                                   - Devante.

Done saying I'm done playing, Last time is this time, Tired of giving a shit about people, Been used to that my whole life. Gave heads up on my snap at the end of 015, Don't see the point of snapchat in 016. Antisocial thinking it's social where people care less of how you feel but really the media making the most out of it. Martin said no one has your back other than yourself,  It's a lonely world when alone. Feeling the weight of the world, That's how you feel Martin when you try proving a point to the world other than yourself. Focus on being a better you yesterday never saw and let your tomorrow do all the talking, Now that's word of mouth. A flex guy I was, thanks to the roommate back in apartment 316 You helped change my style and looks, But it took Tunde waking me up from my slumber, life isn't about the shoes, clothes and bottles. Life measures so it's standard with our standards. You need to get used ...

Gazing at you sternly now I'm old enough, I can never explain how I still feel like a kid around you. Like a knight, You serve as my shield and sword, Always there to protect me as I've sworn to ever fight for you in this cruel world. I see your hidden tears but I never know how deep it hurts, I see your scars but never know how many battles you've fought, I see your smile but I sure do know how much Joy that brings to me. Your heart is of your fist size,  But it still has room for a million things related to me Mother's heart beats always for me until mother's heart beats no more. In Nego True's words, "Sometimes you got to put something beautiful last, to make something beautiful last". I make merry with you so I keep these memories whelved in the safe of my heart, But it'd never be like my mother's heart, Consumed with love for me. Happy birthday Mom! 50 has a new face around.

Wow! It's amazing when I travel down memory lane to this time, I'm amazed at how things have actually changed. What a time that was. A new stage in my life, I've got a chance to get something in control, Carve out something I call mine. But first need to learn my surroundings. Last summer, I heard of your dads death, And a plus to my misplaced count of life and death, starred me into my soul. I watched you tell tales about your dad, A super hero in your eyes, you spoke proudly of him. I likened your dad to mine, a bitch move and one I'm not proud of, There's no life better than yours so I gotta love mine, But I can hardly careless if I hear about his death. How can I love mine when mine hasn't even loved me? And I actually realized that the girl of my dreams wasn't far off from my reality, It was a make believe and still is. A moment I find myself chasing waterfalls, Hoping I don't lay to rest in its bed. I was probably falli...

And to the lady, Who solely HAD the key to the chest of my beating heart,  Like that of David Jones.  I too am not sure about us but I know what's real.  You revealed myself to myself,  Showed me the idea of whom I want to spend forever with.  I'm still a growing young man learning about life,  I think I know enough about life but that's me lying to myself, But one thing I know for certain is,  Whatever is best for you never goes away.  It could only go into hiding just to see how hard you'd search for it or maybe,  try replacing it and,  If it's best for you then your only option is to search hard for it.  God knows what's best for us all. Only a fool wouldn't put his faith in God.  Having a relationship with God is the ultimate.  I don't go by the terms Christianity or religion, These days these words aren't what they ought to be.  Personal observations has left a cu...

Holy Ghost! I'm on my knees, I'm on my knees. Holy Ghost! You're all I need, you're all I need. I could relate perfectly to this. Walking through the neighbourhood I grew up in, I could feel home again, I'm freedom. How much I've missed Lagos, How much I've missed calling Maryland home. It's all thoughts and smiles and greetings around here, I elope in this region. Jesus! With a scream, I heard as I approached the church in my neighbourhood. With pain from the deepest part of her heart, She screamed again, Jesus. I could tell she's female, judging by the tone of her voice. She sounds like she has gotten to the walls of frustration, She has been eaten up by the pawns of struggle. Her pain! I felt her pain from the sound of her voice. Right there where I was, across the church, I went down on my knees in all appreciation to The Most High. I have my battles Lord, I open my heart to you. This wom...

And then I was golden in the dark, Glittering sparks of unforeseen forces, Just beneath the sky. The moon prides itself, As it shines in all fullness, The stars are gone to sleep. Even nature has its bad side. The heart beats, but to no melody. All clattering noise in here. I am void. Can you play a melody to soothing it with all calmness? Can you play that harp long enough not to let my demons have the best of me? Can you fight alongside me on my quest in conquering the world? Can you be all in all the Bonnie to my Clyde, That I glide so low to praise you to the highest heavens? For a moment, Understand who I was, who I am and who I wanna be. I have me, but often times I lose myself on a path where I try to see what you look like or who you are. Anxiety in happiness, how does that turn out? The matrimony, I sure dunno what it feels like. You scare me but I can't wait till that stage is attained, And when attained, I'll ...

You say I'm just a mess, I say baby I'm stressed. You slowly hug up on me, and I feel the affection. Oh, babe! I've missed you. I can tell, she says. I see how you've been acting lately, I can see it in your eyes You slowly give me the stare, And I see the sun rise and set on your face. Oh what an epitome. You know I need a getaway, You give me a ticket to your vacation, And tell me to prepare for the adventures of wonderland. I salute like attention, We inter switch like opposite as we communicate orally. You see I'm well spoken, and I see you drooling from beneath your beauty, Then you glide slowly from my mountain top. Stormy sails make good captains they say, As I sail through your troubled waters. Holding on, as I aim to make you rain on my ship. Hoping not to let this ride capsize and overflow, As I reach to let your water overflow. I attain greater heights, As the stormy sea falls to calmness, fugac...

And I want to fall in love. And I want to fall in love with you. And I want to fall in love with you again. And I want to fall in love with the things we used to say. Maybe it's because I thought about you today. Maybe it's because I thought about you the other day. Maybe it's because .......... Ah! What am I saying? I know, This is me telling you I'm happier and living better, Now that we are over a zillion yards away, But still trying to say I miss you from within a trillion yards. A long shot, I got a long way to go. It's boring somewhat, not having you here or in my life, But I'm fully entertained. You are no good for my health. Maybe I don't need good, Good keeps me happy,  Bad makes me hyper. Like cocaine,  You're bad for me but can't function without it. Sometimes bad isn't always ugly, And good isn't always beautiful. Beauty could come from ugly . My topmost form of happines...

And even though I know it's going to take you a lifetime to read this,  I write this with the betterment of hope. I see how you advance levels,  I guess that's what comes with age. Feels like a movie, watching how the next phase surfaces on different platforms. From a regular kid in the neighbourhood, To the girl he was always shy of taking to in the neighbourhood, Who has also got your interest at heart. More like your secret fan that has always wanted to see you and every other kid in the neighbourhood successful in all that we do. Different cliques,  Probably made it difficult to strike the perfect conversation back in Convent. And I saw how saucy your friends were and like the saying,  "show me your friends and I'll tell you who you are",  Thought you were also saucy.  Well you seem like you are with that piss off sign you have on your forehead. Remember back in Convent,  When one of the sisters punished literall...